Marlain

It has been a long, difficult and windy road to here.
I grew up living around the world, never a national of anywhere, always welcoming of new cultures, with sparse and scattered friendships. I am a cultured, middle-class, lonely person with heart.
I used to sing Madonna to a hairbrush in the bathroom because it was forbidden in my bedroom. I was to become a Biochemist with a 40,000 euro a year starting salary. Rebelliously, I ended up a singing actor. My voice could do many things, many styles. I became a professional, a vehicle for others who knew what they wanted to say and how they wanted it said. I listened dutifully and fervently because I was grateful others were giving me their voice.
But I was not satisfied, I needed to go searching. I started writing for therapeutic reasons stashing it all away in a grotty folder afraid to show even myself. I thought I could never be good enough for the world.
I joined a TV POPSTARS band called HI-5, easy success, instant ‘apparent’ security, total brief recognition.